Tonight I begin to share the journey of living with and coping with the dreaded words, "Terminal Illness". This journey began fourteen years ago on Valentine's Day, February 14, 2001 when my husband told me in the car after his doctor's appointment, that he was dying. This blog has been on my mind for a very long time, as I have hoped through the years to be a help to others who are living with a loved one who is terminally ill. I want to share our day to day experiences as well as to share with you how we have coped the last fourteen years. This blog will be full of emotions, some joy and happiness, as well as some anger and despair. I want to share what it is to mourn inside for fourteen years while I continue to live with and care for my husband, knowing that the end is inevitable for him, as well as all of us. I am very tired tonight so I won't go into details in this post, but I plan to blog here often, if not daily, and it is my hope that this blog will be beneficial to many who stumble across it, that it might help you in your walk and journey here upon this earth as we struggle with the hardships that befall us, the questions that we cannot seem to find the answers to. I hope to help others find some sense of peace in the midst of insanity and grief. My blog will not be for those who are sensitive to sadness and despair, anger and frustration. As with all of my blogs, I speak and write truth, and I don't sugar coat anything for the sake of making it "seem okay" or "seem better". Truth is truth, and reality is reality and for those who are interested, I thank you for reading my blog and I hope you will find something helpful here as well as all of my writings and blogs. Laurie Ann Smith